After eight or so months of not being able to write anything this was the first song written for the album, about seasonal depression, addiction, and coming to terms with my brokenness as a human being in need of a Savior.
lyrics
Roll down the windows! The night air is finally able to bring back your cold heart to warmth again from all these months of winter, And it's been growing secrets deeper than you think you'll ever be able to tell anyone outside the surface. Infinite, infallible love from his side as soon as you think you're maybe enough to be. I know you've been trying so hard to fight and your faith in yourself has been burning you alive and it's taking control of what you thought you'd find in yourself. I don't really think I'm capable of getting clean, at least in who I know I am and who'll I'll be, filling all the spaces in between the scenes of what I really want and what I know I need. I need someone that's not me to tell me I'm alright, even when I know I'm not really fine. Could I have dreamed of a love more extravagant, acceptance more pure, and a grace more alive? And I'm taking it in, yeah, the way that I'm used to with finite means and describable ends? It's my own filthy lifeline, my comparisons. I don't really think I'm capable of getting clean, at least in who I know I am and who'll I'll be, filling all the spaces in between the scenes of what I really want and what I know I need. I need someone that's not me to tell me I'm alright, even when I know I'm not really fine. I don't really think I'm capable of getting clean, at least in who I know I am and who'll I'll be, filling all the spaces in between the scenes of what I really want and what I know I need. I need someone that's not me to tell me I'm alright, even when I know I'm not really fine.
I've been watching this band and their head writer, Jillian, since around 2010. Quirky melodies up there with Fiona and Regina. Piano pop at its finest. Brandon Wadley
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